Babies Breath

A flower of an innocent heart and a naive head. In a dark abyss of the world, it seeks to find the hidden beauty in others when it isn’t there. It wants to believe that there are pure hearts out there but everything it trusts turns out to be full of detrimental malicious intent and greed. It’s certain that there is light in the world, but in every corner, all it can see is the murk lurking at nightfall.

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I am the girl, that sits in the back of the class, you don’t know her name or the colour of her eyes. She hides them with her dark hair and her head bowed down, doubting her every move, anything she says, she does. She is in her corner, observing the world as it passes her by, she loses opportunities with every passing day of being too scared to risk. Will she ever say something?

No.

 

Her head is examining the light of innocence while it guards her dreaming heart, in the sky flying high above out of reach of the reality of gravity. She looks for the best in people, certain she will find it. How could she not, after all, everyone has a heart, this she knows, right?

 

She is always justifying other peoples actions.

Did they turn the world against you with a false accusation?
Did they mock you?
Did they take your love for granted?

Did they betray you and give you false promises?
Did they laugh in your face, without hesitation?

Did they walk all over you?

They must have had a bad day, just whisper to yourself it’s ok.
Just keep being the naive shadow and don’t trouble them. I’m sure they didn’t mean to.

Be sweet.

Be kind.

Forgive and forget. Right?

 

She is the soul that is so concerned about everyone else’s emotions and feelings, she often forgets the raging storm that she holds within herself. She tries to stop the endless, consuming fire with a water droplet that simply dries up before it has the chance. She manages to tell herself that what she feels shouldn’t be known by others.

It’s irrelevant.

it’s unimportant.

Don’t trouble them, they are busy.

 

She is the peacekeeper to the rest of the world. She ensures everyone leaves satisfied and happy, except herself. She places everyone above herself without doubting the logic or stopping to question why.

 

She keeps all her worry, frustration, happiness, excitement, every single thought in her.

Until she explodes. A single “how are you today,” can cause the geyser within her to spew out all of her thoughts and emotions, regardless of the time or place. She takes everything out, after a single question.

 

She will still look for the best in everyone, regardless if they take her for granted.

She will still accept doing things in the pure interest of making everyone like her and maintaining the unrealistic expectation they have for her.

She will still absorb every emotion she has, not allowing myself shed a single tear, a single sob. Nothing. She will tell herself it’s for the best, not convincing anyone, not even herself.

She will never accept her past achievements, never give herself any recognition for things she’s done. Her mind has already been permanently programmed to do better next time. ✰

 

Citations

Avenue. “Close-up of Baby’s Breath (Gypsophila Paniculata) Flowers.” Wikimedia Commons, 1 July 2010, commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Close-up_of_baby%27s_breath_(Gypsophila_paniculata)_flowers.jpg.

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